My brain is numb

Do you ever feel this way? It just feels like my mind is numb. I sort of want to cry, but I don't.

Pickle had a good check up at the doctor this morning after our 90-minute wait to see her. We had tickets to see an Imax movie at 11 and she came in at 10:40. Now, the museum is about five to 10 minutes away, so I asked her if she'd go quickly so we could make it. She did while addressing all of our concerns and questions. She pronounced him well, told him to stay active and said we didn't have to come back for six months. Next time, we'll do x-rays for a bone age and the blood levels. His birth defect, if the meds aren't monitored correctly, will cause his bones to age faster than normally. So, we check that about once a year. He is doing really well these days.

We were a few minutes late to the Imax, but they let us in the back door so we could watch Santa vs. The Snowman again. Little Bit can now say snowman. Very cute. We ate Mickey D's and went to my mom's. I took a brief nap - going to sleep at 3:15 a.m. and waking at 6:45 a.m. isn't good for me. I'm too old for this shit. I went to my job interview and I think I'll be taking the job. My first time back in the workforce after five years of working from home. I'm anxious and scared about the prospect. I also want to scream because I don't want to leave my baby in daycare. I love being home with her and being here for my boys after school and during school. This will be the longest six to nine months of my life, but I can't pass up this money. It will be the most I've ever been paid and it will allow us to get the car paid off about six months sooner and get ahead on some bills.

I can't eat after midnight and I have to be at the hospital at 11 a.m. Surgery is scheduled for noon, but my doctor said not to expect it that soon. I was hoping to watch Elf tonight, but that won't happen at this point. I'm too tired to stay up. I'm going to go take my last bath sans cast on right foot for a few weeks.