DAMMIT

Well, this just figures. The regular nurse at my surgeon's office is out. She had told me on Monday that as soon as the ID doctor told me we could take this port out of my chest that she would make sure and fit me in to get it removed. Well, the nurse filling in for her is telling me that we can't do it till TUESFREAKINGDAY!!! I said that isn't acceptable. I want this thing out before it heals over any more and makes it harder to remove. I want this thing out because I'm done with it.

Not that I have any say in it, I don't guess.

I'm so mad I could cry. My happy cry was this morning, now my sad cry is back. I just want this out and I want this over with. It is embarrassing to have this thing hanging out of my chest. It is uncomfortable and I want it over with. I called the plastic surgeon's office to see if they could run interference for me and haven't heard back from anyone. I just called and left another message for the surgeon's nurse saying I'd be okay with any of the surgeons in the practice taking it out, I just want it out. I hate not being able to plan and know. I hated not knowing how much longer I'd have to do this and then I thought I had an answer. Now, I have to wait again. I'm so mad.