Introspective

I was trying to think of something really positive and upbeat to write today. I've been trying to pump myself up, but I'm still not ready to do that.

I do have wonderful friends, though. I got an email from my high school journalism teacher, who reads my blog. That sort of cracks me up. But, she does. She hasn't critiqued it yet, so that is probably good. My cousin sent me a good email and one of my editor buddies sent me one, too.

They all had a central theme: I'm stronger than this.

They're right and maybe once I get some more information on what is going to happen and I have two more doctors to talk to and question about why this is the best course of treatment, maybe I'll feel a little better about it. I'm just tired of hurting and having to go through this stuff. I'm not big on pain.

I'll have to keep checking out these quotes that I have taped to my computer monitor:
Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do. - John Wooden, the most successful coach in college basketball history.

and

You will find your strength within you; in places deep inside that you have not yet dared to visit. - Ruth Fishel, who is the cofounder and former director of Serenity, Inc. She now teaches, writes and presents workshops and retreats throughout the country, helping people become whole and healthy using the tools of meditation, affirmations, and visualizations.

Or in the words of Stuart Smalley, I'm Good Enough, I'm Smart Enough, and Doggone It, People Like Me!