Just when I thought ....

I was doing ok, I get another setback.

Went to the doctor for a follow-up exam today and turns out that I have some rare strain of infection in my incision and that is why I'm not healing, still draining and why my incision hurts on my leg. It isn't healing. It is also the reason I have two giant bumps under the incision where the seroma or whatever broke through.

This fucking infection is so fucking rare (sorry, I'm mad right now) that I can't even find it on a google search. Some scientists have it listed on their CVs or else it is listed on some veterinary site. Oh, that is comforting. I have a dog disease. Great. I don't even have a dog, nor have I seen or been in proximity of a dog in forever. So, no jokes about catching this from a dog. I suppose Army of Dad is a "dog" in the sense that he likes to chase females, but even that isn't really funny to me right now.

The treatment options are penicillian and that is out because I'm allergic to it or IV antibiotics and we're not talkign about one round in the doctor's office. We're talking about inserting a hep lock and doing this thing every day, twice a day for a period of time. I don't really know right now. The doctor was running late in surgery and I got all this from a nurse I have never laid eyes on. She was waiting for the doctor. He put in a call to an infectious diseases doctor to see if there is ANY other kind of oral medication I can take to kill this infection. I don't even know what it can/will do to me at this point.

I feel so useless and I wish I had never done this. I hate it when I get this way. I would just prefer to crawl under a rock and die. But, instead of that, I'm going to get my oil changed.