Give it to me straight, doc

On second thought, don't tell me the worst case scenario. K?

*sigh*

There is so much that I don't know where to start. A few weeks ago, I had an episode in which my vision went pixelated on the far right side for about 30 minutes. It did that pixelization thing and then I had some blind spots. The next night, I believe I had a petit mal seizure. I experienced these as a girl, but hadn't had one since I was about 23. I stopped taking medication when I was around 24 because it was known to cause birth defects and I wanted to have a healthy baby - so I knew I needed to get it out of my system before becoming pregnant. Anyway. I was sitting at the computer and it came on.

Then, about a week later I started having that feeling like your feet are going to sleep - that pins and needles feeling. Except, it wasn't brief. It lasted for about four hours in my right leg. Then, it came back in both legs. It has gotten worse over the past week or so. It had been only when I stayed in one position for too long. Now, it does it when I'm sitting, standing, exercising, you name it. They hurt as often as not. Apparently, this is called paresthesia.

I started immediately thinking of Type 2 Diabetes. I'm chunky and sedentary and the symptoms all make sense. He checked my circulation in my arms and legs and it is fabulous, so that is good.

The doctor is leaning more toward something neurological. Yippee. No comments about something being wrong with my head - we knew that already.

He did order a blood test to check my lipids. They are "abnormal" and I return in the morning for a fasting lipid-something blood test. So, I likely have high cholesterol. No surprise there as I eat ground beef and french fries way too much.

After the blood test, I go for an MRI and EEG. He wants to verify that I did have a seizure and one of those tests should confirm that. He also said it will help him rule out a tumor, aneurysm or MS. Thanks, doc, just what I wanted to hear. He said our best case scenario is simply that my epilepsy has returned and I will resume meds and monitoring for that. And, well, I'm not sure what could be worse than a tumor, aneurysm or MS.

I know just enough medical jargon and information to be dangerous and paranoid. I've been exhausted for the past month, overwhelmed emotionally and not really myself. Army of Dad had an intervention for me on our date night Saturday. He gave me the lecture about how I need to take better care of myself by exercising. My self-imposed pity party is over. I heard what he said. Coming from a guy who HATES the whole communication stuff, for him to say something, I know he is worried about me. I have to take that seriously.

So, I worked my computer to its circuits today, quit feeling sorry for myself and even put on makeup! I got out the exercise bike and have ridden it a couple of times. I figure a slow start is better than no start.

So, there it is. I couldn't possibly let ArmyWifeToddlerMom out-do me with tales of her wuthering uterus. So, take your hysterectomy and I raise you the threat of MS and brain tumors. HA!

Ok, seriously folks. I'm fine and I'm sure the doctor's final words will be the case when I asked him about his prognosis:

"We may never know what the cause was and it may go away on its own. We just need to rule out the worst."